Peace Comes with Letting Go
The following message was posted on the ladies’ private site on the same day as the message shared from the men’s site in yesterday’s Seeds Of Faith post. And it’s interesting to note that even though neither member knew what the other had written, they were writing messages that perfectly coincided with each other. Since this praise report truly expresses what it means to let go and how God then begins to work supernaturally in our hearts, lives and marriages, I requested permission to share it here as well. And if there’s anyone reading this awesome testimony who has not yet reached the point of surrendering EVERYTHING to God, I hope this member’s experience will encourage you to do so, because you will then truly be blessed and encouraged; you will have peace that passes all understanding and you will release the supernatural power of God to work on your behalf and to change your heart!
Welcome to all the new ladies. I pray for your encouragement in the Lord and for the peace that passes all understanding to be with you while we go through the restoration process. I tried not to be long winded but just wanted to share how far I have come since coming to this ministry.
I have learned that healing and learning truly begins when we let go of our spouses. Believe me, this was very hard for me to do, let alone understand. For months and months, I just could not get it. I would always try to understand the what, why and how of all the things that my husband did or said. It would send me on a roller coaster ride and my mind would be spinning around in circles. I had no peace at all. I was placing my husband first and foremost in everything. I had been placing my husband before God for a long time, and I was consumed with my husband and restoration. I also became a master spy. But all that did was hurt me even more.
I had made a lot of mistakes during our marriage and God was showing me the areas where I needed to work on – every area. (LOL!) But I had a hard time forgiving myself, even though God had forgiven me and was feeling a lot of guilt. I was a mess!!
Well, the last straw came during Christmas season. I found out that my husband and the NCP went to his hometown for the holidays. I found that out by prying…spying – there I go again. That hurt me deeply. And I could not go on like that any longer. My kids were at my mom’s and I was home alone. I had to let go and give the whole marriage circumstance to God. I fell on my face before the Lord and cried out to Him. For three days I cried out and prayed to the Lord. Well I tell you, God healed my heart. The ache I had in my belly all the time; waking up, going to sleep, off and on all day was finally gone. I started to feel peace and joy in my soul that was put there by the Lord. I began to read the Word with more understanding and the words of the bible touched me and enlighten me and I knew it was healing to my soul and marrow to my bones. I started attending church and my praise and worship was taken to a higher level. The Word entered my heart! The peace that passes all understanding was falling over me. How sweet Jesus is! How awesome our God is! I have learned to Trust in the Lord with all my heart and NOT lean to my own understanding. It took a long time for this to happen, and there are still times when I have to take my thoughts captive, but I can do this now; I know that I know that the Lord is there for us always! When I am weak, the Lord strength is able to make me strong. I know that Jesus is the center of my joy and I can rest in Him and He will give me peace.
Since my healing, my new awakening in the Lord, my interactions with my spouse have increased – usually initiated by him. Lots of events have occurred, but the interaction between us has been improving. I also see how God has my husband’s heart in His hand, because sometimes my husband says one thing, but the next minute he does another. I use to try and figure it out, but I know the Lord has it in His mighty, awesome hands. I am trusting and believing in the promises of God.
I pray that everyone here will become closer to God and receive his amazing peace, joy and love. Release your spouse to God and watch God take control and WOW!! Amen!!!
Wow! That’s all I have to say! This message really reached out and touched me. I too have such peace in me and I know it’s from the Lord. As I’ve been growing closer to Him, I’ve noticed my husband coming around more to see me and our son. However, I feel as if I have been taking steps back lately, and with each step I take back, my peace is lessened. And my husband becomes more estranged. So this message is encouragement to just stop focusing on the circumstances and focus on God instead. I read a poem today and it was basically the same message. It said that even though right now we are focusing on our problems, God sees the end result. So we need to remember what God sees in the future instead of what is now.